This Blog is me opening up, and expressing myself about my life. I am focusing on opening about me more and giving out 💯 my authentic self, pure love & honesty.
Have you had a point in time in your life when you felt that you didn’t have no one? You felt stuck, lost, and just wanted to give up. You just feel a strong pain in your stomach that want leave, and you feel useless and full of worry…
Life can really suck at times, because once you become an adult and your life didn’t turn out how you visioned it when you were 16 or even 18, so you just completely feel like all the dreams, visions, and plans you had was a big waste.
You have all these people thinking your so spoiled, or you just live such a happy life, and your perfectly fine….
Well this is me, I am HER. I have been through so much. Sometimes as much as i try to hide it, it still affects me until this day now. But, I can say i am a lot stronger.
Life can just be a hassle at times. It’s like your fighting yourself to be better and not give up on YOU. But, sometimes it’s something that is trying to pull you back from happiness. It can be for multiple reasons. The energy around you, the way you think on a daily, or just the lifestyle you still live that you know that you need to change it. I honestly feel that has always been my problem, “STICKING TO THE SAME LIFESTYLE.”
Sometimes partying, drinking a lot, dealing with toxic people, can make it hard for better life changes. I didn’t take that into consideration, and i still kind of don’t until this day now. Why?… Because it’s hard to just let people go and i know it can turn into a big mess. But of course my confused self ask myself all the time “Seqouia, why do you even care?”
And of course, I really don’t even have an accurate answer for myself. I feel like my life is based on bunch of confusion. I’m tired of waking up angry, I want to wake up with full of happiness. Although i don’t just wake up mad everyday, but it does happens often.
I had to really sit in have self-talks to figure out what can i do to stop feeling the way i feel. How can i change things without making it my problem to stress about it, and not let it bother me from becoming a better version of me? What can i do to make myself, “SEQOUIA” smile more instead of everyone else?
Sometimes i know feelings within yourself can be temporary just because things aren’t really going right at the time. But honestly, who really wants to even be sometimes “depressed.”
NOT ME!… AT ALL!!
But anyways, these feelings can’t change on its own right? I would have to be the one to fix these issues. As a human of course we don’t feel it’s that easy. We feel that money can change a lot of stress. And sad to say, it’s true for most people! I am one of those people by the way. I will not sugar coat anything i never do. Once i have money in my presence i am totally fine. I make sure i take pre-cautions when it comes to money though, and i am glad i do. One thing about me, although i love money and i may think of other quick ways to make money i never act on my actions, I continue to keep working my damn ass off and do what i have to do.
Over time which is recently, I say about a total of 5 months ago. A little have changed but a lot more needs to still be fixed. Which i am kind of excited about. I mean can’t no one change over night right? It takes time to become a strong WOMAN/MAN, when you have always been weak 1/2 of your life. I always tell myself it’s okay to cry because soon all these sad tears will be tears of joy. Soon all my worries will be complete. That’s the mindset you have to have. You have to know that no matter how you are feeling today, tomorrow, or even next week, those feelings will go away.
I learned over the last few months to be passionate to myself, and to go with the flow. Over time things will be different. Whoever you second thought about being in your life eventually will drift away, all the finance issues you been having will do a full 360, the way you been living will change, and your struggles will no longer be a struggle any more. Sometimes we have to talk things into existence, and keep a positive mindset. I had to learn the hard way, and i mean the HARD WAY. I had to work on being more positive and grateful that i am living pretty okay, because it’s people out there that don’t have a roof over there head and actually need help.
I know i have a lot of goals i would love to achieve but my main goal is “HAPPINESS.” Being happy is more important to me then anything. Because without happiness your life will never feel complete.
I am glad that lately i have been opening up more about myself so my readers can actually get to know me more. I really post blogs to uplift and motivate others, but now I feel the need to just open more to the world, so people can actually feel they know me through words. I look at anyone who is reading my blogs as a friend. Not a “fan or supporter.” You never know who can relate to your lifestyle, and you never know how many people might actually would love to get to know you and learn you.
Opening up and being your authentic self is always a good look and build trust with others. I can write a book about my life and the things I been & go through. That’s why I am sharing to the world and so thankful for god steering me in the direction of becoming a blogger. Blogging is my reliever, my medicine, my go to, and my happiness.
Anyways if you can relate to this blog drop a comment telling a little about yourself that you would like to fix or you can just email it to me 😊.